DP @ home

Dear Mash...

Been to home for 2 days. After spending six days here in kgp during the holidays, thursday night i decided to take the first train to home the next morning. Actually, life had became hell not in terms of fun and enjoyment but for the basic needs of human existence- Food, and you know how i admire food. During the astami, me with my wingmates struggled in the restaurants to get the dinner. After 1.5 hrs or so, the dinner came and by that time the rats were already killed inside my stomach by the bio-acidic substances it produces, as they say. Horrible experience was that. After all it was Dussehra Pooja and bengolis are supposed to go out to restaurants once a year. Not their fault. Neither mine. All of them were owed by Mr. Rakesh, the waiter. He was the one who ignored us among all the bengolis sitting over ther. He was the one who took the order but forgot to bring the dishes to our table. Hopeless fellow. I would have thrown him out of his duty if i were the owner of the hotel.
As a whole, the two days of gap from kgp life was quite good for me, pyschologically and physically. Nice experience althougth i missed the Dandia festival in the Mayfair Hotel. Damn it!!! It just came to my mind while writing this blog. Looking forward to this tedious process to over.
Good-night, take care
Yours Maharana

GRE series - VI

...... contd

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 1:15 pm
Venue: Prometric Exam Chamber

The bell rang and a beautiful damozel recieved me at the door. Uff yahan bhi distractions !!! Anyways, the guy over there took a photograph of mine and made me aware with some rules and regulations. I was told that throughout the test i would be observed by video camera, so no need of indulging in any sort of malpractice and if i need anything just raise your hand, we'll come to help you. Yes Sir. I agreed and signed in a logbook and entered the glass walled chamber.
The room was like one of the cyber-cafes in bhubs. Two computers are separated by a vertical wall made of polyster/wood. You can watch your neighbour very clearly but not his computer. I was given an ear plug so that there wouldnt be any disturbances. The lady set my computer on and allowed me to take my seat and wished me best of luck. Ohh my god!! What a sweet voice she had. After Preity Zinta, she has got the most wonderful voice in this world. Distraction again!! Concentrate bastard.

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 1:30pm
Section: Analytical Writing (Issue)

After going through all the instructions very carefully, i clicked to start the exam. The 1st section was to write your views on an issue. Two topics were given and i chose one. Its amazing that I still remember the topic word to word:
"Anyone can make things bigger and more complex. What requires real effort and courage is to move in the opposite direction—in other words, to make things as simple as possible"
I had 45 min in hand. Well that seemed to me a lot of time. I had taken a lot of fundas on how to get a 6 on 6 in issues. I tried to recollect all those sentences which should be written and which i memorized so as not to lose time in structuring the sentences and spend much of my time in developing ideas. But what the hell?? I couldnt even remember the first sentence. What the fuck is going on? Went 10 min and i havent typed a single word. The points i had written down on my scrap paper, but i was not getting the initial push. I realized that why my dad kept on saying "Son, its always better to write whatever you are reading. It would make you much more confident in the exam and your hand will not stop even though your mind stops working." It was all because i never wrote any issues before and moreover i was overconfident that i write well and comment well, so its obvious that i ll do well in the issue writing part. So i had skipped the total portion. All these helluva passed through my mind as well as eyes in a few fractions of seconds. Then i just calmed down and started to thinking of my own sentences and left what i was supposed to write and what i had prepared for. My typing speed is awesome and i m proud of that. The 10 min loss in the begining doesnt bring that much harm to me and i was finished 2 min before the end of the section. All is well that ends well.
Had a 10 min break after this section. I accepted the break and went out to answer the nature's call again and refresh my mood.

Day: 0 (Wednesday)

Time: 2:23pm
Section: Analytical Writing (Argument)
In 5-6 mins, i finished my business and again entered the chamber. There were 2 more min of break. So i utilized it by observing the cameras, their positions, the profile of the girl sitting next to me, the actions that candidates normally do when they face some really difficult questions and i wondered this would be my situation after some time.
So, my break ended and the argument topic was given. No alternative option this time. It reads:
"Fifteen years ago, Omega University implemented a new procedure that encouraged students to evaluate the teaching effectiveness of all their professors. Since that time, Omega professors have begun to assign higher grades in their classes, and overall student grade averages at Omega have risen by thirty percent. Potential employers apparently believe the grades at Omega are inflated; this would explain why Omega graduates have not been as successful at getting jobs as have graduates from nearby Alpha University. To enable its graduates to secure better jobs, Omega University should now terminate student evaluation of professors"
Now i have got 30 min to answer this or rather to criticize this argument. I forgot what i read on how to begin the first sentence and how to assemble the ideas so as to give the reader an attractive impression. There was no time for that. I learnt in the previous section that without prior practice nothing can come up during the exam when you are under stress. Ironically, i have practiced a bit on how to tackle with the arguments. But it was better for me to forget that and keep on writing and simultaneously building up the ideas. And i was really surprized by the outcome. i literally fucked the author of this argument although the sentences lack that glamour but its acceptable, thats all i can say.
And this section ended with which i was satisfied. After a break of 1 min, the next section was about to come.

........To be Continued

GRE series - V

...... contd

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 12:30pm
Venue: 1st floor, Sukh Sagar Building

My dear friend, so as to say senior, told me to arrive at the center a bit early so that the documentary work gets done quickly which could let me get in the exam chamber sooner. Saw Kumaresh coming out of the chamber.
"Hey, how did u do? Whats ur score?"
"Oh man. Exam went far out of my imaginations. I couldnt believe that i scored 1350"
"Oh la la...there u go.....u ll be with ur gf soon in US...congratulations"
"lets hope so"
"hey buddy, listen...can u tell me some questions that were asked in ur paper.....i know u cant recollect but can u pressurize ur brain a bit and tell me some....i heard that the questions get repeated in the exams on the same day"
"sorry yaar...kuch yaad nahin aa raha"
"well ok...lets see...whats there in store for me....u go and check out of Shree....that old man must be furious by now....dont know if he has thrown ur luggage out of the room.....he is really afucking bastard....rush in"
"yea i must go now...best of luck...do well....i want u in US too"
"ooh sure.....i ll..thanx neways.....meet u in hall"
Entered the glass door and the immediate response on my face "What the fuck!!!" There were nearly 10 ppl, even more than that, sitting in the waiting room. The reception guy gave me a warm welcome. He was nice in behavior although i couldnt realise any sort of gay feelings in him. He gave me some papers to sign which clearly says two three points which i'll never forget:

• Nothing is allowed inside the Exam room. Everything'll be provided. (I had doubt about my shirt and pant)
• If the candidate is found leaking the question outside or inside the exam room, his/her score will stand cancelled. (well what the fuck is that....i have enough rights to express myself, anywhere, anytime)
• ........
• ....
• ...

That was enough tonic for me...i signed quickly and submitted the papers alongwith my passport and institute identity card. God saved me, I didnt forgot that to bring along. So and so, time passed by and at around 1:10 pm i was returned back those papers and made to stand just outside the chamber. I was told that they ll call me inside when my turn comes.
Actually, i dont want to mention but i was sweating, even though there was hard centralized AC working. It was, i guess, because of nervouseness. No!! It cant be. I wasnt afraid of the exam. I knew that it wont go well with the preparations that I had. But there was something which kept on itching me. Maybe the concern for the future career. Maybe that the fear that i never makhaoed any exam before. And a lot many 'maybe's which i cant clearly demarket right now. Its in my mind but cant able to write it down. In this spooky situation, i went to answer the nature's call, although i answered it 30 min back. Now this is the type of feeling you get when you first get on to the stage. Will share these feeling later.
And the bell rang, and i was called inside.

.......To be Continued

re: wahts up dude?

ram ram bandhu,

Kauchi beet rahi hai DP..... Tohar ghar mein sab fikarwa karat rahe..... tu jawat kaahe naahin..... jo kaam tum abhi karat rahe uhi to tum ghar se wapas aane ke baad bhi karat saki naa..... kya ukhaad liya panchon din reh ke.... tanik bataiyo jara hame...... kichu naahi naa..... hum sab janat sake hai.....kichu chipane ki jaroorat naaahi......
waise..... hum tohar waaste, uu kaa kahte hain hindi mein, good news laawe hain..... hamra bhi GRE khatam hoi gaya..... tere jitna score aawe hain hamra bhi utna hi..... what a coincidence, naahin?
Apna khabar sunaate rahiyo middle middle mein......chalat rahi hum

jai ram ji ki
tohar
Mashua

wahts up dude?

Dear Mash,

Well, i didnt knew that after giving up the GRE, life would become hell. The most boring and tiring part is perusing through the webpages of various universities and finding out the researches going on there. It wouldnt give you much pleasure to lick the professors' ass. But if you have to go abroad and continue your study, you have to, no other way out.

Last night i felt some pain in my right eye. It could be coz of continuosly looking at the monitor for 3-4 hrs at a stretch inspite of the anti-glare screen. I think i must put on my specs while working on the computer. But it doesnt look nice on me. Moreover, people keep on teasing me if i do so. I hate when somebody says me 'maggu', which i am not. Just specs couldnt give such an indication.
Started reading a new novel - The Diary of A Young Girl by Anne Frank. Its totally a new in its own way of depiction of the story. Hope it will help me in spending my time effectively here in kgp. Whats at your end?

love Maharana

GRE series - IV

.....contd

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 10:30 am
Venue: Shree Krishna Temple

Went to the nearby Krishna temple. What a peaceful and calm atmosphere was that among all the filthy environment of the metropolitan city. Spent some time over there closing my wandering eyes. Murmured the prayer which my mom taught me when i was 5. Althought the lyrics i couldnt recollect totally but the tune, yes i could.

It wasnt even 20 min, i could see a beautiful angel coming over to the platform of the temple. Besides her was his dad. 'Shit man!!! What i am looking at? Just concentrate on ur prayer and complete it.' But of no use. My eyes remained open all the times without any flickers. Her dad was staring at me, i could well sense that. But i was helpless and mesmerized. 'ab mera kuch nahin ho sakta. aaj to fukka lagega hi lagega. fate bhi saath chhod degi aaj, bhagwaan ke darbaar mein eisa kam jo kar diya', i said to myself, concluded my prayer and got my ass of of there. Back to the pavilion again.

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 11:00 am
Venue: Shree Guest House Reception Counter

Collected all my stuffs from the room and checked out. Asked the reception guy to take care of the other luggages of my friends who ll return by 12:30 or so. That guy turned out to be an uddu. But who cares as long as his behavior has become all bengoli. I really hate them. I was on my way to Prometric Center with a very nervous mind and body.

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 11:15 am
Venue: Hotel in front of the Center

Had my lunch over here with a paper in my hand. I was memorizing the sentences to be used in arguements, so that not much of my time is consumed in the actual exam in thhinking over and over again what to write and how to criticize an arguement. So, i had prepared some sample sentences which can be fitted in any topic. Thats the way iitians memorize things and make things simpler.
But gosh!!! Yahan bhi bandiyan aa gayi. Not one but 7 this time. And these are much more cuter than the temple waali bandi. To make things much worse, they occupied the table in front of me. I wanted to concentrate but how can i when so many 'menkas' are there. I guess it was menka who broke the meditation of valmiki. Aaaw forget it, i have got a very bad memory. Its worse when it comes to mythology. I moved back to the last table and faced by back to them and continued my RAM program to run.
At around 12:15, paid off the bill and moved to the Sukh Sagar Building which was just in front of the hotel on the other side of the road.

.......To be Continued

GRE series - III

........contd

Day: -1 (Tuesday)
Time: 8:00 pm
Venue: Sarat Bose Road (Kolkata)
Got a bus to Minto Park from the Howrah railway station. Beside the park is the Sarat Bose Road on which my center was there. I took out the address, it read:
_____________________
Prometric Test Center
Prometric Testing Pvt. Ltd.
Flat 1/C, 1st Floor
Sukh Sagar Building
2/5, Sarat Bose Road
Kolkata, India - 700020
_____________________

Saw the test center from outside. Filthy building....yakk. The guard didnt allow me to get inside. I moved ahead to find a place to spent the night. Luckily i had taken another address of an inn named Shree. As soon as i get inside, the old guy recognized me.
"You from IIT kgp, right?"
"yup. Can i get a room for a night?"
"Sorry dada, we dont have ne single rooms left"
"ok get me the double room then", i was fuming when he addressed me with 'dada'
"I m extremely sorry,we dont have that too. Every room is already booked"
"So what do u say i must do now"
"We have three quadruple rooms vacant, u can hire that"
"how much is it?"
"Rs 650 only"
"Am i looking mad to u? how do u expect me to hire such an expensive room that too of no use"
"then sorry boss"
"well thank you very much"
I got outside the inn with a blank mind. Whats next. Lemme just have a look around and find another inn. If nothing i can find, Shree inn will be the last option. Coincidentally, two guys, one from my hall and another one uddu,were walking in front of me. I yelled "Kumaresh, is that u?" He turned back and replied
"arre naa maharana, tera to kal afty mein hai naa. abhi se kyun aaya"
"nahin yaar eise hi socha ki kuch ghum fir lunga aur araam farmaunga. kal peacefully exam dene ka iraada hai"
"chal peace hai, kuch rehne ka thikaana hai ki nahin"
"nahin yaar, shree sala m@#@#c#$@, 650 maang raha hai, i was searching for another inn. Have u booked a room beforehands"
"yea, come with me. lets see what can be done"
"sure, thanx"
we went there again. They already booked a double room. I paid a little extra money and got with them.
After having out dinner together, we returned to our room. These two guys were fully prepared and were planning to sleep. It was me who was very nervous as because i didnt memorized the whole 50 word lists. I took out my so called High Frequency Words, and started mugging it. Thats the last option left with me to pass the exam. Looking at me their tempo also rose and they took out their Barron books. These ppl made me psyche. They keep on quesioning each other with so very unknown words that i feel ashamed of giving the exam. Finally, i pulled the blanket over me and bid good-night to them and slept peacefully. However they kept on mugging.

Day: 0 (Wednesday)
Time: 7:00 am
Venue: Shree Guest House
Kumaresh woke me up at 6:30 although i told him not to do so. He is such a jerk. Oops, he is a yr senior to me. sorry. Hope he aint reading this. Neway, i got up and "Holy sshhhhhhit" i forgot my brush. I rushed to a shop nearby and bought a colgate brush. Borrowed some toothpaste from Chandra (another uddu guy with us). Just after that "What the fuck!!" i forgot my comb too. Had a nice and cold bath and then only all my senses returned to their respective places.
These two guys were all ready for the exam. Wished them good-luck and they left. I was in the room alone. I tried to read but i couldnt concentrate. Everytime the only thought came to my mind was what if i couldnt make 1200 score. Monday and Tuesday i gave almost 6-7 practice tests and i could never get more than 1170. That was my standard, i knew it. Then also there was a lil hope that my luck might click just like it did in IIT screening test. Its altogether a different thing, ll come to that some other time. As i couldnt concentrate anymore, i closed all my notes and got prepared to go a temple nearby. I discovered it last night only.

.......To be continued

The Day before the TDS Show

Its 15 min past 4am and i m still awake. Reason being just returned from the TDS practice. i went out of my room at around 3 pm and its nearly after 13 hrs that i m returning.

Practice today was very hectic. Never danced like this before in my life. Continuosly dancing for 6 hrs and too in Romi's song which requires a lot of energy and vitality. All this is happening coz of my GRE date which fell just 2 days before the TDS-Zonasa show.Had i been to pratice regularly then i wouldnt have seen this day when i am screwing myself up.

Starting from 8 pm, i kept on dancing, in fact learning the steps. Now, i found out that its very difficult to pick up steps of others unless and untill u are very strong in memorizing steps. Unfortunately or otherwise, i am not good at memorizing all these things. I learned all the steps but the sequence of their occurence i got always confused with. And thats the only quality of a talented dancer. It implies that i m not one of the good dancers which i admit proudly. Jindagi mein dance karne ke alaawa bhi bahut kuch kaam hota hai.But anyway, as i have commited something, i have to deliver. In the process there may come many hurdles, and it is worth mentioning here that i am very good at 110 m hurdle race. Can jump them off in no time. Sorry.... getting out of track. So the practice continued for 6 continuos hrs without any break. I was totally fucked up man. Not even a single step i could afford to put forth after that. But there is a grand show tomorrow and to put up a decent show we need practice. In fact i needed more. People were insisting for a break and later 'pack up' order. But how can it be possible without doing a final run-through on the stage. So, the order went "everybody to toat...u ll get ur refreshments over there only"

Toat Run-throughs

Started each dance sequence and me with srinivas were there to criticize each and every song as and when they go out of course. Of course a good dance performance will obviously get an appreciation. 2nd song was mine 'chair dance'. Did the whole song almost correctly but i and only i knew where i fumbled a bit. Dont worry audience wont be able to catch it it. This sequence was quite good. Then came 2nd part and i love this song by Rishi Rich. So its natural that i ll not makhao in this part too. The third part was the most difficult one. Its not the steps which are difficult to pick but i devoted very less time in practicing it, almost less than 20 min. Was quite a bit nervous, but it also went ok kinda sort of thing.

The next song was the last one 'Romi's special'. I must mention here that this song requires the real tempo from u and its very tiring. Unfortunately, it's also composed of 3 songs. It was a total 5min 32 sec and we all thought we can manage that. The first part of the medley went good. Thanx heavens. So was 2nd. And by the end of the 2nd song, i was profusely palpitating but i continued and thought that it wud be the last song only. Everything will be peace after that. But while doing the 3rd song, i couldnt bear nemore and in the middle of the song i separated out and sat idly. Sorry thug (my colleague governor)........... ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

GRE series - II

......contd

Day: -1 (Tuesday)
Time: 1:30 pm
Venue: D-Top-West,Nehru Hall
After having the lunch, i was discussing with Nitesh and DamRao (urf Appa Rao) in my wing. Dam, as he had experience of GRE twice, was giving me fundas, which apparently i wasnt aware of. Nitesh was trying to console me that i ll score good in the final exam no matter what i was getting in the practice tests. I was in a horrible condition then. Never touched the score of 1200 which is the minimum for getting into any grad schools. So, in a way, i was frust.

Then came the question of going to cal and giving the test. Dam suggested me to go the same day when the exam was, thats wednesday morning. He did the same thing twice. So, its decided that i ll leave kgp on wednesday morning 5 am and by10:30 i wud be at my destination. As the matter settled down, i went back to muggai. After alll i m giving a respectable exam, not like our semester exams that a day before study would do the job.

As soon as i went to studies, i mind was somewhere else. What if the train in which i ll go tomm will be late, late by 5 hrs. What if there occurs and accident. What if the rain god feels happy and pours down all his tears. I would be lost in the big city Kolkata in the rain and it would be very difficult for me to find the examination center. No, i have to go now. Packed my bag in a hurry and put the required documents and bid goodbye to my wingmates.

Time: 3:20 pm
Venue: Kharagpur Railway Station
The howrah local was about to come at 1530 hrs. It took me some time to decipher what this time format means. Hadnt seen this for so many days. When i did it, i realized that in the next 10 min train wud be here. Rushed to the ticket counter and took one. Luckily i met some friends of mine who were going to cal too. 5 of us ran to the platform no 6. The train was standing there. It was about to leave. All of us got inside one of the boggies. Yukk!!! It was first local train journey. There were no seats to sit. We kept standing for an hr or so. As our legs were revolting us, we sat on the floor itself. I took out my frequent word list and mugged a bit. Finally, reached Kolkatta station at 6:15 pm, around 3 hrs of tiring journey it was.

time to go for a haircut.....will continue after that.....cya

.......to be continued

GRE series

This one and the following few blogs would be totally devoted to my experiences gained in giving out GRE exam. So it goes........

Day: -2 (monday)
Time: 9:17 pm
I was left with no money as TDS sucked every penny of mine. Hardly i was having a 100 note and some "chillars". But, God is always there to help us at the right time and right moment. I recalled that i have an atm which i made use of in the beginning of this sem. So, why to wait for?.....Although i had to fight to search the card in my tiny room, the next moment i was on my bike (cycle, in fact) and in 10 min i was in front of atm counter. Surprisingly there were no other people which meant no more queue. I got inside and inserted the card and typed the pin code in. and "what the fuck". The pin code was invalid. I tried again. Alas! The same result. Typed a different password and this time also it didnt worked. Aother try, and this time some thud sound came from the machine and some printed form was about to come. I was so very relieved that "My God, it happened finally". But wait, whats this. The printed paper reads "your acount is temporarily blocked due to excessive tries with wrong pin-code". The sudden reaction "Ooh Fuck!!!" What i gonaa do now? How can i go kolkatta with so little a money. The solution "Tension nahin lene ka, kal ka poora din baaki hai...dekha jayega"

Day: -1 (Tuesday)
Time: 10:35 am
I got up early. It was 10 to 9 am. So fresh i never realized. But i was in a haste. I got ready and went to meet a prof who ll give me reco if i think of applyin abroad. Luckily i found the prof in his cabin in which he normally isnt present. "aakhir BTech jo hai." I took his advice as to which colleges to apply. I had to give these details after the GRE exam. He gave me some palusible suggestions.
Next i rushed to the ATM again to try my luck. And this time there was a huge queue. And it was the scorching sun which was creating a lot of discomfort. I had no other choises left to stand and wait. Finally my turn came and i pushed the atm card. Last time i checked the password with my dad over phone. I entered the password with a hasitation. And....And it was a miracle. It was not even 24hrs and the blockage was removed so soon. That's SBI service. Pants off to it...Ahem i meant hats off.Got some quick money and left for room with a rush to mug a lil bit more.

The rest in the next bolg. I am feeling very sleepy and need a sound nap......Dont disturb me...bbye

IN SHORT

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DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TO WRITE STOP FACED MANY PROBLEMS IN THE LAST FEW HOURS STOP WILL JOT THEM DOWN AFTER COMING BACK STOP LEAVING FOR CAL TODAY ITSELF STOP HOPE THE EXAM WILL GO OUT OF MY EXPECTATIONS STOP AMEN
MASH
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[ 2 9 ] Hrs before the D-Day

Time is slipping out of my hand so fast and so rapidly that i am freaking out. Last day only, my exam was more than 50 hrs later but now looking at my watch, its not even 30 hrs left. This is one of the toughtest times i am going through. Never been so nervous about any exam in my life. But this, i dont know why, breaks down all my nervous system. Well-wishers adviced me to shift the exam if i am not that nicely prepared. This is the only thing that i have in my hand. But, i dont want it to be shifted. If i shift it to a month later or so, i know very well that my preparation is not going to improve a penny. Then also i ll sit with the same nervousness and same number of word lists which i have digested till now. So, i dont see any sort of benefits doing it. Rather, i ll be screwing up myself for a longer period. And i hate being screwed up.

Right now, i am going through whatever i can in a haste. Just having a look at all the words, never mind if i could memorize them or not. That i ll check during the exam. RC (Reading Comprehension) is the most difficult part in the exam. I mean how the hell could i know what an author means by writing a passage, when all the four answers seem correct to you. If i have some idea in my mind and i write something related to it which is not directly present in the passage, rather it is implied through the examples, even shakespeare couldnt guess what i meant by saying "...the monster gave the princess a smooch". This is ridiculous. Many times i think its the RC of CAT which is much more better than that of GRE, at least everything is there in the passage. One just has to go through it thoroughly. But here, first constraint you have got 30 min in hand and 30 questions to answer. Out of these, 3 RC is for sure. How can one think of even completing the whole questions, when RC takes extra time to read and to think in the way the author thinks. Anyhow, lets see how much can i attend in the war-front.

Now its time for muggai, will write few more tips/controversies later.

Darker side of IIT culture

Isnt it that the teachers should culture their students and try to bring forth their best part? But come to IIT kgp and just have a superficial view on its so called prestigious Gymkhana. It is totally governed by dictators and monsters. I dont think they are, in my weirdest dream, are professors or teachers. And add to that, the student representatives (G.Sec and V.P) have no work but to lick their shoes and clean every single dust which they gain due to their own virtue.

These people want G.C. in the Inter-IIT sports meet which is being held in IIT Chennai this time. But they dont understand that to reap something you have to invest at least the basic inputs.The PTIs take the total credit if his team wins medal at the inter-iit level. And why shouldnt they? After all they are the officially appointed trainers. But isnt it shameful on their part to boast of things that they dont do? The team in which i went inter-iit last year won silver medal due to its team effort, on-the-spot strategy making and dedication along with respect for other team members. The so called trainer didnt even come to the practices and neither did he, in any way, involved in any improvements in the player, only except those days when he escorts his daughter to the gym. I totally agree and fully dedicate that medal to the concerned PTI. But now if he boasts of last years performance and that its only him that the team won a place in mumai, then i am sorry to say, i have to take all my respects back. Its not only my or any single feeling, its a outburst of all the team members. The team is now broken up. Dont know, how in a period of two months, a new team gonna evolve with a winning attitude at inter-iit level. Anyway, i am getting out of the track.....

I never imagined that the politics played in the gymkhana would rise at such a fast pace. Though i have seen it last year, but it was a milder version of what is going on now-a-days. "The stronger and huge always dictates over the timid and small", thats the rule of the nature. But here in the gymkhana, something else is cooking up. The authorities incharge are so easily carried away as if they dont have any credentials left. Except the G.Secs and the V.P, any other student can go to them and make them change their decisions only for the sake of his hall. I mean i dont understand. When its the question of IIT then the love for the hall comes later. Same as the way we love our country first and then our state. But some people keep all their decency at stake, infact they go against the faith of friendship, and think so narrow-mindedly that will never produce a good sportsman in their hall neither can it do any help in improving the standards of their performance. Who stops you to excel and go ahead. But if you resort to dirty games and try to reduce your competitors performance by attacking pyscholocally, is it fair that they continue in any kind of sports. My answer: NO!!

Whenever i see politics, i just show it my back and walk away of the scene. But now i think i have to jump into the mud and get myself cleaned up with that dirty water. Only then you can fight with this filthy system of IIT. You recede back, you are gone out of the scene. You show attitude and determined that "i' ll fuck them all", you rise. That kind of philosophy works here very well. I'm too late in understanding it.

Lingo used here

There's a minor problem
Arre yaar, "Waanda" ho gaya

There's a big problem
Arre yaar, "Jhol" ho gaya

There's a huge problem..(unsolvable)
Arre yaar, "Raada" ho Gaya

You'll be surprised
Ekdam "Hill" jayega tu

I am going out of this place
Chal apun "Kaltii" marta hai

Don't make a fool of others
Dekh, tu "Shendi" mat laga sabko

Just get out of here, you oversmart fool!!
Chal e shane, "Hawa" aan de

I am not a stupid out here
Apun kya "ALIBAUG" se nahi aaya

There's some misunderstanding
Arre kuch "Galat Faimili" ho gayi

Do u drink daily ?
Tu kya roz "FULL TO" hota hai?

Shall I bash u ?
E Du kya "Kharcha Pani" ?

Just take him into a secret place
Use jara "Khopche" me leke ja

What a beautiful lady !!
Kya "Zakaas Item/Maal" hai yaar!!

Don't just bluff
E Jyaada "RAAG" mat de..

Don't take much tension..
Jyaada "LOAD" nahi leneka kya ??

Your clothes are very awkward!!
Kya "ZAGMAG/DHINKCHAAK" pehna tune ?

I don't care about it much..!!
Abe yaar , "Hata Saawan Ki Ghata"

Please don't bore me...
Jyaada "PAKAA" mat be tu

All this must be done without anyone's notice
Sab kaam "SUUMDI" me hona chahiye...kya ?

Ephemeral Gush of a Nervous Mind

It is said that "given enough time, a chimpanzee at a typewriter can produce the works of Shakespeare"....So how many years would it take for one with Barron's 'How to prepare for GRE Test' to crack the exam with 10 on 10 score rather 1600 on 1600......even if i am well prepared (thats a sort of consolation for me), i am getting these thoughts that not even a single question ll come from those whatever i have read till now......Holy crap!!! i have got a lot to mug....will write later on....Best of luck buddy......just try to be composed and dont think of any kinda suicide methods to adopt......Jesus ll help you and save you from being crucified, if he has got a slightest amount of sympathy for you......have a nice weekend

96 hrs before the D-Day

Another four days left and i feel as if i am preparing myself for the final plunge into the unfathomable ocean, although i know that i am not that good at swimming.....damn thats the only thing i wanted to do after coming to IIT.....and its still a dream.....a sense of nervouseness is getting on my spine....never felt this before.....its exciting sometimes.....a question revolves round my head all the time...."what if my GRE doesnt go well? what after that?"......i know, for the answer i have to wait till 13th oct but i wanted to know the results beforehands.....thats the tendency of human nature....u always want to know the culprit before the suspence of the story starts......and once u get to know it, u dont like watching the movie or reading the whole novel then.....well, with the preparation what i have till now, i can predict the results right away......but then still there is hope that my luck might click on that day.....oooh fuck!!!.....the d-day is 13th....the unluckiest day of this world for everybody to do anything.....i m gonna screwed up now, guarantee with a money back assurance......only thing i can do is hope against all the odds .....Jesus!!! save me.....i ll not be atheist nemore if i get through this ordeal

Thats gonna hurt !!!

sometimes people debut their activity with a blow off.....be it movies, be it exams, be it riding, be it sports or be it blogging....i never knew what a blog was.....and i started thinking it as some kinda personal web-page.....fuck me!!! what a dumbo i was?.....later on today, after being grilled in my summer training seminar, i was adviced to go through a link rather a blog of a very dear friend of mine.....i started reading......though the color of the background and the font were very contrasting.....i tried.....gone 15min.....and i havent completed even half of it.....i kept reading on and on and on......another 20 min gone.....pheww......i got the intermission.....rushed to the bathroom to pee and then back to the literature with a spec this time.......thus passed 35 min more.....and Jesus!!! i cant read more.....lemme stop and delineate what i thought after reading such a touching and feel good blog.....after all, its my bestest friend's first try.......it has to be different.....although i cant complete it, i can well say that the last line "will continue" almost brought me a heart attack......if not, just have a look at it here .....
keep it up dude.....

Learn to Say "NO"

When you are working under your big-boss, it is mandatory that you always become toady. Heads up, stand straight and shout "Yes Sir". Whatever be the work, whenever it is and indifferent to what your engagements are on that particular time. Well, thats natural. Its the world where everybody wants to rise and if you go against you boss, you better find a place of solitude.

But being a undergrad-student, whom are you accounting to that you cant say no to any work. Although the work assigned by your proffessor falls under different category. Friends, juniors, Seniors and close pals come to you with their different problems. And i cant understand why? Why cant they just give it a shot and try to solve it themselves. Why are they under this misconception that their problem solving capacity is less than others? And moreover, why are they trying to involve others in their genuine trouble? Answer to this can be very simple. You are their bestest friend thats why people come to you and take advice. On the otherhand, taking advice and working on it is not they dwell on. What they are interested in is: you solve the problem for them and they sit beside you having a cup of coffee. I mean what the hell? You came to somebody with such a serious matter and you transfer all the load of yours to your so called best friend and you relax at ease. Thats not the relation of friendship which thrives on sharing and distributing griefs as well as happiness. Its now high time that i begin thinking that where am i getting it all confused, where am i taking the wrong path which leads to the destination where i find myself totally screwed up. After close analysis and many researches along with a very close and best friend of mine "M"(thats her nick name in short), we came to this conclusion that one must learn how to say "no" to things which are non of his concern. You should'nt and you must'nt take over the throne of God. Getting involved in each and every affair will do no justice to you, neither to your health nor to the event. If you learn to do it wisely without hurting anyone, it will be another quality you just created and which ll help you a lot in your future endeavors.

Oh Jesusss!!! Stop me.....what am i doing?

Ssllooww Mmoottiioonn

Things go so slowly sometimes that u feel like doing everything in a fast forward manner....and which many times gives u satisfaction that u have done something great which on the other hand is nothing very special......

1. an hour ago, u wished to complete a 2.2 km track in just 25 min....and bingo!!! in the next hr u have almost completed it.....although the last 200 mts were hard to cover up running.....but neways as long as u are able to reach ur destinations, who cares.....
2. u wanted to eat the delicious hamburger slowly so that u can taste each and every single bite of it.....but u are so hungry that u cant wait the burger being tortured gradually, and wham!!!...in the next second it goes all together inside the hell of urs....although u are not in a position to swallow it... but who cares as long as it serves ur appetite....
3. holding the Barron book of GRE, u wonder if u could possibly, in ur wierdest dream, able to complete 3-4 word lists a day with 98% efficiency of not forgetting the already memorized words......but the need of the time is that, u have only 8 days in hand for the exam and u gotto hurry up @ 10 word lists per day......and whack!!!.....u do it....and its great going now.....u cudnt have imagined dreams coming true like this....altho' the efficiency reduced to 60-70%...but who cares as long as it helps u to sit in the exam with a lil bit of confidence.....
4. Everytime u wanted to catch the time, it always flies by and never comes to u again.....but when u ignore the time and let it go on its own way, it will certainly knock at ur door and keep informing u that it has arrived and invoke u to play "common catch me if u can" game......but u are so tired and so lazy that u arent able to get up from ur lovely and squishy couch.....u say "get the hell outta here"......but then, it doesnt go.....it keeps on popping up untill u get frustated and get up of ur comfort, open the door and shut it again hard on its face.....but by now u have done a great job.....yippee!!!...u are on ur feets moron and u are no more relaxing or resting......even tho' u keep on blaming time but it helps u all the time, even when u love it and when u hate it......

these kind of weird ideas keep on coming to my mind all thru out this day.....yesterday it was mild though, but it came.....and i needed some ways to pour it out......my wingies....naah......they got frust when i started all these prosaic thoughts......think i have got a better way to do it.....